Letting God be God

You know, I've been a Christian for 17 years now.  But it wasn't until the last year and a half when the Lord gave me a revelation of His Love  that my life has never been the same.  I've never felt more alive, more at peace, more full of joy, more full of hope, more full of promise, and best of all, know Him in a way that is realer than me knowing you.  And although He has blessed me and allowed me to do some things that I wanted to do,  a lot of His blessings has come through ways I wouldn't have chosen.  He sent me to a church where I didn't even like the worship, yet I knew He wanted me there.  I had a decision to make.  Will I follow Him?   So I did.  And He taught me that it's not about whether we enjoy the music, but it's about worshiping Him from our heart. He has given me a heart of worship, so that wasn't difficult, but I really wanted to enjoy the songs we were singing.  He had great healing and deliverance in that little church for me.  I would have missed it if I had decided that where God wanted me didn't fit the list of my 'church requirements'.   And our current church doesn't even have a --gasp--youth group---but He has brought great healing and revelation to my family, and not to mention, some of the best people that I am priviledged to know.  And now, God is leading me in a very big area of my life, an area I have never given Him access to before.  And once again I found myself looking at my list of 'requirements'.  And this morning He reminded me what awesome things I would have missed out on if I had gone by 'my requirements'.   He has been beyond faithful, He is being more than I could ever ask or dream.    Yes Lord, I will follow You, even when I don't understand, even when I am kinda scared of what people will think.  Because You have blessed me so much, and no person, no achievement can touch what You have in store for me.